My biggest fear? Being alone

Nobody wants to be alone, and there is no more isolated function than being a pop star.

Just ask Lady Gaga.

Her rise to fame in 2009-10 was unlike anything we had seen before. One of the first pop stars that harness the power of the Internet, seemed to be present in a permanent attack of TMZ images and gossip blogs.

Their appetite was fierce. She wore a lot of appearance and sounds within three years, as one of the critics wrote that it was “Madonna’s profession that is run by the entire speed.”

While her fame grew, the headlines became more than that. She organized demonic rituals at a hotel in London … it was a secret of the Kharshavin … she planned to see her own “fashion” leg.

When I attended the 2010 MTV Awards in a fully made of meat, it seems that no one gets the joke: Gaga was offering herself as fodder for tabloid companies, and it is consumed.

On the stage, it was the subject of worship for her fans, small monsters. But anyone who is not crazy knows that this type of design is a distant illusion.

“I am alone, Brandon. Every night,” Gaga told her designer in the 2017 documentary, five feet.

“I go from every person touching me all day and talking to all day to complete silence.”

Now 38, and the participation of the business chief in the field of technology Michael Pennski, Gaga admits that these years of isolation are afraid.

“I think my greatest fear was doing this myself – practicing life on my own,” I told BBC.

“I think the greatest gift was to meet my partner, Michael, and to be in chaos with him.”

The couple was together since 2020, and revealed their participation at the Venice Film Festival last September – where Gaga wore a million dollar engagement ring in public places for the first time.

Personally, it’s great, with a huge oval -cut diamond on a white Buffy and rose gold.

But on the other hand, Gaga features a smaller and more valuable ring, which features some grass blades in the resin. It turns out this It is a really special one.

“Michael has already suggested to me these blades of grass,” as it reveals.

“For a long time, we were in the backyard, and asked me,” If I suggest to you, like, how do I do that? “

“I just said,” Get a blade of the grass from the backyard and wrap it around my finger and this will make me very happy. “

It was a deep romantic gesture that was sad. Gaga’s backyard in Malibu had previously hosted the wedding of her close boyfriend, Sonja Durham, shortly before her cancer death in 2017.

“There was a lot of loss, but this happy thing was happening to me.”

“To participate in 38 … I was thinking about what it takes to reach this moment.”

These feelings finally informed a song in her new album, Mayhem.

It is called (naturally) a blade of grass, finds the star sings.Lovers kiss in a garden made of thornsAnd the promise of love in the time of darkness.

She calls her “Thank you” to her partner. Fans may also have a reason to thank him.

The full Mayhem Marks Gaga returns to Pop, after a period when she was busy with her cinematic career, and cross albums that were involved in jazz and classic American songs book.

Speaking to Vogue last year, the singer revealed that her fiancée paid her in this direction.

“It was like, my love. I love you. You need to make pop music “,” She said.

“On the Chromatika tour, I saw a fire in it,” she added. “I wanted to help her to keep it alive all the time and start making music that made her happy.”

With this approach, the album returns directly to the SUCKER-PUNCH voice for Gaga early like Poker Face, only dance and Born this way.

On the latest individual song, Abracadabra, to reconsider “”Rome what“Bad romance moisture – although this time there is a sign of death, because it sings,”Morta-Uh Gaga“.

In the artwork of the album, her face is reflected in a broken mirror. In videos, it gives up previous versions of itself.

There is an overwhelming feeling that the artist Stephanie Geramanota is calculated with the theater character she created.

Everything returns to his head on a path called Perfect Celebrity where she sings. “It became a notorious beingLyric, like a meat dress before it, its humanity comes out.

“This song may be the most angry about the fame I have ever written,” she says.

“I created this general character who really became in everything – and grabbed it with dualism, knowing where to start and end to Lady Gaga, was a really challenge.

“He took me somewhat.”

How did she reconcile the general and private aspects of her life?

“I think what I already realized is that it is better no “You have the line of division and integration of these two things into one person,” she says.

“The most healthy thing for me was to have a female artist and that living an artistic life was my choice.

“I am a fan of song composing. I am a fan of music, exercise, design, theater production, fashion, lighting, and hitting the show.

“This is what he means to be Lady Gaga. He is the artist behind everything.”

In previous interviews, the musician talked about how she separated from Lady Gaga. For some time, I thought the character was responsible for all her success, and she contributed nothing.

The chaos represents the moment when its music is restored, not only from “Lady Gaga” but from other producers and writers in its orbit.

“When I was younger, people tried to take the credit for my voice or my picture [but] All my regions, all my imagination of what pop music could be, came from me.

“So I really wanted to reconsider my former inspiration and my professional life and possess it as an invention, once and for all.”

From the beginning, it was clear that Gaga was enthusiastic about this new stage.

Last summer, after her shows at the opening ceremony of the Olympic Games, she moved to the streets of Paris and The early illustrations of its new music played For the masses who gathered outside its hotel.

It was an incentive decision at the present time, yet this was another effort to restore spontaneity in her early career.

“This was something I had done for nearly 20 years, as I played my fans on a musical path before it appeared,” she says.

“After my programs, I used to invite the fans behind the scenes, and we were hanging up and I would occupy them with experimental performances and see what they thought about music.

“I’m sure you can imagine that after 20 years, you don’t expect people to appear to hear your music and be excited to see you. So, I just wanted to share it with them, because I was excited because they were there.”

As one of the interviews, this is the moment of a complete circle for me as well. Last time I met Lady Gaga In 2009As just dance is the number one in the UK.

At that time, she was a theater, as she was enthusiastic about her love for John Lennon, describing herself as “addicted to heroin” for English tea, and promised to send an email to mp3 from the kisses of berries – an unpleasant song, brilliantly, about having sex while breathing your breath of coffee with raspberry flavor.

Over the years, I saw her interviews become more guarded. She was wearing bright fashion or black sunglasses, and put a barrier between her and the journalist.

But Gaga, which she met in New York, was the same as that she spoke to 16 years ago: comfortable with herself, enthusiastic.

It puts this ease to “growing and living a full life.”

“Being there for my friends, being there for my family, and getting to know my amazing fiancé – all these things made me an entire person, instead of the most important thing is my theatrical personality.”

She added, “I wanted to enjoy the final air:” I wanted to stop chaos.

“I moved away from the symbol. It ends with love.”